heading toward the black hole

of Bar Study...
40 days I was informed today. It is really just hitting me that I am graduating from law school next month. like i am done with school. when i started, 7 years seemed like FOREVER, but now i just can't believe it is done. and I am about to be a lawyer. wow. wtf. the last three years have been so amazing...sigh..

went to a law school alumni function tonight...mah...free wine and food... i probably should make a concerted effort to "network" at these things...but i AM shy believe it or not and just generally don't know what to say to people. talked to one guy who interviewed me second year for a high-powered firm. that was awkward. he was telling me what he does...boooorrrrring. i'm like, do you like that? he's like, yeah its challenging and we're busy. that translates to i don't know what the fuck is going on and i work a lot of hours. can't wait.

so that side of me is like get off your ass, go out every night, enjoy your freedom and your life. and then the fat, lazy, poor, dedicated student side of me wants to sleep...